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It seems so long ago, yet it isn’t very distant  
The thoughts and emotions though have drifted far away.  
I had created a dark corner of my world in which for me to dwell  
And I despised the sunrise of every passing day.  
 
I had cut myself off from most everything in life  
It was an easy cure for the pain.  
I was sick of the broken heart, the broken spirit  
I looked at nobody the same.  
 
I decided I would never give my heart, body or mind again  
There was not a person that was worth the stress  
So I reverted into that dark corner of the earth,  
Knowing that solitude was what was best.  
 
You think you realize things as you head through life,  
One is to hide from pain.  
You figure that cutting people off from you  
Will keep you from going insane.  
 
That is what I did back there  
In that dark recess I believed I’d lose sight,  
Of everything that was wrong with my life  
I embraced the darkness and cut off all light.  
 
It was peaceful in my darkness,  
Hurt could not penetrate the walls, therefore it could not be  
But what I didn’t take into account  
Was the festering pain brought in by me.  
 
As you sit in the dark, you think of the pain  
It grows and grows deep inside.  
You begin to believe you deserved it,  
You begin to believe the lies.  
 
However, in my mind I knew I’d done right,  
In the dark I could guard my heart,  
Pain could never come from brokenness  
If I disallowed the love to start.  
 
However, in that dark recess,  
Where I thought that I was safe  
I was about to be discovered,  
About to be embraced.  
 
The light burst in with blinding glares  
It penetrated my heart.  
The moment I looked into her eyes,  
I felt that love begin to start.  
 
She grabbed me in her arms,  
And I placed a tender kiss…  
I realized that I was succumbing again to emotions  
And knew that my mind was amiss.  
 
However, I couldn’t stop what was happening,  
No matter how hard I thought or tried,  
Every time I almost stopped the emotions…  
I again got lost in her eyes.  
 
How those eyes found me, I will not know  
But one thing I can tell you is this…  
I fell in love with her right away…  
With a look in her eyes, a caress from her hands and a gentle kiss.  
 
I now sit and wonder, how she got through the guards,  
I want to know how she knew to tear down those walls,  
I was never supposed to feel this way again,  
This wasn’t supposed top happen at all.  
 
But as I sit with her in my arms,  
I know that those thoughts are wrong.  
It wasn’t that I was never meant to love again,  
But that I was waiting for her all along.  
 
Waiting for that one person that could love me the way I love her  
Waiting for the girl that would steal my heart once and for all  
My broken heart in the past was all my fault, not the fault of those around…  
Those girls just were not my princess, had no glass slipper, and weren’t at the ball.  
 
As I sit and think of her, I know one thing for sure.  
Those walls were not built to protect me from the world at all.  
Those walls were built to protect me,  
From taking one last horrible fall.  
 
The walls surrounded me perfectly until the moment they knew to fall  
They did their job, allowing nobody to come in from around or above…  
But when she came along, she knew how to break through,  
And now I know I’m in Love.  
 
Copyright Lance Ryan - 2006