i need to anonymously vent, this year has been ridiculously hard for me and my family,well actually the past 2 months have been hard.
It all started halloween day, i woke up to my mother screaming on the phone that my house was on fire and a body had been taken out,immediately i thought it was my common law husband because hes the only person who i thought could have possibly been in the house, i felt my heart break into a million pieces,i have never felt so much pain in an instant like that before.
turns out it was his cousin who had passed, which is equally heartbreaking because he was so young and so sweet and no one deserves to die that way,and he passed in my home.
me,my partner and our 4 children were misplaced for a week because housing wouldn't put us up in a house saying "they dont have emergency housing waiting for houses to burn down".
so we found a home in a tiny town which has nothing but a post office an hour away from the city i grew up in,i was just laid off for the winter and didnt have enough hours for ei, so here i am on assistance paying almost $300 more than i can afford for rent because i cant find a job or childcare anywhere near me.
I applied for a hamper from christmas cheer and saw a light at the end of the tunnel when i was told my family was "adopted" by an organization, so i waited and waited and finally called to see when the stuff would be delivered, turns out the organization backed out on the adoption,i instantly started crying,i barely have anything to give my kids for christmas because money has been so tight since the fire,we lost everything.
So i decided i would put a wish here on ebrandon to try and get a little help because i know the people on this site are very caring, someone messaged me, i was so happy!everything was looking up for my childrens christmas! after giving my kids sizes etc i sent the msg and checked everyday for a confirmation reply, after a couple days i gave up checking,today i finally managed to get online and got a reply! again i got really happy....until i started reading it, the person who wanted to help had been pming me on the site and because i havent been online and they couldnt get ahold of me they went ahead and donated the gifts to an organization, if only i had checked 
, im sorry this turned out to be a big rant but i cant help but wonder, is this just a streak af extremely bad luck or should i just give up? at this point i'm keeping a smile on for my kids but honestly, i dont know what im going to do
PLEASE no negativity i really dont think i can take it right now