rubyred said "Do you enjoy being here ?
Are you doing what you want while being here ?
Or just putting in time ? Wonder why your here ? "
Oh my, did I ever ask the same questions when I was in my 30's!
I had such a profound epiphany that I would never be able to explain to people viewing my message here! I used to fear everything. I was depressed thinking this life was such an combination of random events that were a vain means to and end.
One day, I saw that everything that existed has some kind of conformity and purpose. That creation was more than a random explosion in the universe because so many things are too intricate and beautiful for words!
In my search, I began to read the Holy s:criptures, first as a history book, then seeking the deeper meaning, it led me to believe more and more in an Intelligent Designer.
Now I see to know Gods' purpose for my life. It's profound once I stopped to listen to the little voice inside. How I feared everything in life: People, traffic, disease, animals, germs, evil, (all the dangers of leaving my home), and more.
I have no more fear or worry or doubt about my future. Can't really tell you how I know that your life has a profound purpose. I guess when I was at my lowest point in my life, I prayed ..." God if you exist, then _______". When I saw my prayer answered...(a prayer that was so profoundly impossible for any HUMAN to answer), I was convinced that I was LOVED and my life had meaning and purpose.
Everyone has a different prayer after the word "then".
I also met Him. (God and Christ). I know it's hard to fathom. But its just a share. Doubt I can convince you, but hope you seek out your way as I did.
Furthermore, I am not a "religious" person. Never have been. I like science. I guess that is where it all began, with me studying the universe. I had to succumb to faith. That took my fears. It was too overwhelming to ignore.
...embrace life. It's all good. If you want to talk, no problem. I am always open for a chat via private msg.
Hope y'all don't mind my sharing.
~send with love.