Restart said "I’m middle aged, and have been hit with depression so hard it shook me! In the recent few years, I have lost a parent, lost custody of my kids, gotten a divorce, lost a few loved family members to different illness! I don’t think I have properly dealt with any of these things and it’s creeping up on me! I’m constantly sad, always on the verge of breaking down and crying! People are noticing somethings wrong, but I always lie and say everything’s ok. I have tried talking to people but it doesn’t help! What can I do? I’m getting scared of my future! I’m feeling helpless! "
Sadly I think I know exactly what you’re going through. In a matter of an 18 month span I lost 6 people very close to me, and in the past year I lost my dad and had a lot of life changes. If you ever want to talk just pm me, I’ll listen.