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I was in a relationship with a guy for 9 months. In that time we became serious,he was away for 5 months working and then when he came home,he moved in with me.In May I began having anxiety problems and some depression cause my meds were no longer working. Because of an earlier problem in his life with an ex,he had to deal with her depression for 2o yrs.He said to me that he can't live with it again and moved out. I am great now and he says all he can be right now is a friend. We see each other maybe twice a week,other than that he lives his life. I was just happy to have him in my life. But I miss him and the all the things we use to do together. He sems to be calling the shots as to when he decides he wants to see me. I have no idea if we will ever be a couple again. He is away 5 months out of the year and that is heard to deal with. I just want what everybody wants is someone to live life with. Am I being a big wimp and letting him do this.I am not sure if he is in my life cause he doesn't want to hurt me(too late for that)or what is going on.Do I deserve better?