Abbysmum said "I agree with you 100%. But I think the difference is that sometimes we do need to make an effort to overcome our prejudices. We all have them to some degree (I think it's something innate in people to be suspicious of people from "the outside"), but it's making that choice to not follow them. In time, you overcome them when you realize they're not, in fact, outsiders. But it's hard, and requires a degree of inner reflection that some people don't seem to possess in sufficient quantities (again, something many people need to consciously work at).
I know I have biases and prejudices deep down. They are often driven by fear. For example, when this whole COVID thing started I went to the grocery store and the cashier, whom I have seen there many times before, was of Asian descent. I had that fleeting moment where I was afraid of getting sick from her. But as quickly as I had the thought, I was able to intellectually smack myself upside the head to realize that her looking Asian didn't mean she had the virus. Only people, regardless of their appearance, who had traveled to Wuhan in the past 2 weeks could have the virus. I smiled at her and asked how her day was going, and life carried on.
My husband was shocked when I told him about this interior conversation I had with myself, but I think it illustrates the effort many people do have to make, whether we want to admit it or not. Some need to do it more than others - I'm pretty easy going and generally find a person's colour or religion irrelevant. But for the briefest moment, I was driven by fear, and that gave me a great insight into discrimination. It's fear, even if it's fear of losing privilege. The OP is afraid of protests, of "the children" - again, fear is a driving factor.
It doesn't justify discrimination, but it does change the conversation a bit at my end - a person of primarily caucasian origin who recognizes the impact of things like privilege and colonization. It's okay to be afraid - but it's acknowledging and choosing to not be afraid that will help move us, collectively, past this to a place where colour or religion truly doesn't matter. "
I'm glad that you posted what you did, you are honest at least.
This virus has shaken me, I'm a little better now but still not feeling safe around people, doesn't matter who they are I just need them to stay 6 feet away from me.
Before everything was shut down we went to pick up a food order, the lady who waited on me had a cold and I was like kind of panicking but then I gave myself a mental slap and told myself that I had a horrible cold in January that lasted far too long and was wicked to say the least and that maybe this lady had the same cold too?
It's okay to be frightened a bit when trying to deal with all the emotions this pandemic brought to us.